| | Who would think so many months could go by and yet I had nothing to say. Thats not the Jill you all know and love, eh? Well, maybe thats a good thing. Sometimes you get all caught up in yourself and just either blab everything away and make no sense (you know the old saying, "Better to keep silent and look like a fool than to open your mouth and prove it.") or you go inside yourself. I fought the battle to not do either...sometimes losing miserably to both. Sometimes, not. This last nine months has literally taken all we know and depend on and put it in a blender and made it a puree. It has been our job to pick out the pieces of what is left and find a way to build a new life on them with only the direction of a bible and prayer. Ever made a milkshake? Think of taking it after you blended it and picking the milk out...good luck.
Now I'm not saying that it is impossible. You can go get training and specialized assistance and certainly take all the milk out of a milkshake. It all takes time and a ton of work. We will mess it up a few times and we will certainly make a few messes, but eventually we will have the experience to do exactly what it is that we have worked so hard to learn. Thats the way it is with the work we do for the good of the cause of Christ. We are being prepared to do "something". It may be as simple as offering a moment to someone in need or as complicated as leading the masses to the throne of Christ. Regardless, it takes preparation, work, faithfulness, endurance, focus and the ability to not let the grief that happens so often take over your soul. There is only one way. Jesus Christ. I am absolutely sure...one way, one door, one path, one Jesus. Look for the path, open the door, pay attention and listen to Jesus...he is there even when you are not. He will give you what you need when you need it...even when you didn't know you needed it. Do not depend on men, do not give up on men either, only God is perfect and he gave us Jesus so that someday we will be made perfect in Him. But until that day...be faithful. Forgive generously, love when you don't want to, give up resentment and bitterness. They will only hold you back from fulfilling the training God is generously giving you to use while you are here. Do you really want to miss living? Why would he give us life if it wasn't worth more that the grief we are bearing today? The grief will pass and you will get stronger if you let God use you for His good.
Just remain faithful...let God carry the load. If you get a chance, read Hebrews 11. You are not alone. Many good people remained faithful and never saw their promise until they saw God face to face. I hope that doesn't happen to any of us. But if it does, it will STILL be more that worth the suffering down here. Edify each other. Lift each other in prayer. Let people see why your light shines even when you are hurting. Oh...the sun just shined in on me through my door to might right. It was cloudy all morning...until now. I have it so good. I love you all!
Know you are blessed.
Jill
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